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Classes are going to be fun, right? [19 Aug 2005|12:29pm]
[ mood | blank ]

I got my classes today, yay!! Good old MCCC. Here you go:

Monday -
~ SPA101 - Beginning Spanish I: 9:00 - 9:50
~ HIS101 - Western History to 1648: 3:00 - 4:15

Wednesday -
~ SPA101 - Beginning Spanish I: 9:00 - 9:50
~ ENG101 - English Composition I: 10:30 - 11:45
~ PSY101 - Intro Psychology: 12:00 - 1:15
~ HIS101 - Western History to 1648: 3:00 - 4:15

Friday -
~ SPA101 - Beginning Spanish I: 9:00 - 9:50
~ ENG101 - English Composition I: 10:30 - 11:45
~ PSY101 - Intro Psychology: 12:00 - 1:15

If you could possibly help me getting around talk to me on AIM or something like that. It be pretty cool.

Anyway, I feel like just writing about some stuff now. Madden 06 has been good to me so far. Good times in Superstar mode, let me tell you. Davey Jones is the best Running Back, EVER! Anyway, There is also the fact things have calmed down here, which is good and bad at the same time. I mean, I like having people over, but sometimes there has been too many over too much of the time. I think all of them are supa cool, but I need time to myself, which is what I got recently. I had a good sunday, even thought saturday was kind of a bad day/night for me. It had it's fun times, but it ulitimately sucked the big one. Hmm, I don't have the job at Bob Evans yet... but I'll get it, trust me on that one. That's it.

"I think about you
when I'm sick and tired of stupid girls
... I think about you all the time." - "Superman" by The Matches
(And you don't even know it was to you...)

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Here I am [13 Aug 2005|10:37am]
[ mood | frustrated ]

Well then, look at me, I am posting. Well duh! I have alot that's been going on. SO, here I go. Stress release time:

There's been a rather large group that I have been hanging out with lately. It's cool, all the peeps are pretty nice. It's just last night I noticed why I really don't like relationships sometimes. Just the stupid things that the people in the relationship do. The stuff that they know isn't even practical to do to a friend, but for some reason it's ok to do to someone you are suppose to treasure? People just frustrate me sometimes. Relations are suppose to be good times, but sometimes I really feel like they are a burden. Here I am, not even in one, and I feel like I'm going nuts. Mostly the fault is mine, but still, It would be great to see the attraction from the person instead of just hearing about it from their friends. I can understand being shy, I'm pretty shy most times, especially if I like someone. That's probably why this situation is driving me up a wall. We both seem shy, and yeah, it takes everyone else playing trivial pursuit or us to go outside at 6 in the morning to have anything meaningful happen. Sounds kind of fun, huh? Not really, actually. Never would of thunked it, huh? If we can get past all this akwardness, I think that everything will be amazing. There is a huge date-thing going on today, which I really hope goes well. Maybe that will go smoothly. Maybe...

Another thing that has been bothering me alot lately, I have been trying to get a job at Bob Evans, but it just doesn't seem to work. I think they must really don't. I have went there a few times to check it all out, but it really seems like they won't be hiring me, which really sucks. I need some job that's close. I don't know why I keep getting ignored when I apply. I didn't think my work ethic/look was that bad. I don't know what to do. Blah, this whole thing stinks.

Ehh, That all for the bitchin' so far. Hopefully I won't have any reason to be emo next time around. To all the people that read this thing, thank you for actually dealing with all my complaining.

Note: Most times the entry has to with girls, I'm emo. Shame huh? I thought so, too.

"Breakin' the silence is the hardest thing in life" - "I'm Wrong, But You Ain't Right" by Kid Rock

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Damn I'm Emo... [29 Jul 2005|06:22am]
[ mood | awake ]

Heh, good times on the morning of July 29th.

I just spent the night hanging out with cool peeps. It was most excellent. Things should happen like that more often, maybe actually during the day. I been goofing off most of the time. I just got a sweet new browser, and I switched up my myspace. I will have to say, it is freakin' sexy as anything I have ever seen. You all have to see the sexiness that is... my myspace. Oh yeah, that band in the background is (hed) pe. I used that because they are awesome, and the picture is really crazy looking. That Guy named Davey Jones

So, about the title of this entry, well, look at my past posts. Heh, rough times in the life of Dave Weber. It justs shows how much people change. I really don't let much bother me, recently. There is still stuff that comes out now and then. Certain past entries still hit me a little, but I'd just be plain emotionless if they didn't. I've been having good times, though. So, let the good times keep on coming. Let's see how it all works out.

Now about music, I have recently noticed that I will probably listen to most things now-a-days. So this is my request. All you guys mention any musical artist that you think I should look up. ANYTHING!! I know a few of you guys have some different tastes, so hit me with your best shot. If you guys don't offer some suggestions by comment, I will find out where you live, and I will kick you straight in the face! (I swear I'm not violent, or emo!!)

That is all for today, kiddies... or is it? ~ DUN DUN DUN ~

"Im sick of writing the songs that make you think that you're so special. You never really were that special" - "I Hate Your Eyes" by Halifax

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Hey... [24 Jul 2005|10:58am]
[ mood | content ]

Hey guys, what's going on? I've had a good week. Pretty much the best thing was catching back up with my cousin Shawn. I remember him being a little guy (even though I was smaller) and hanging with him. He's still the same guy I remember, but a tad bit bigger, considering he's 22. He has a lot of really cool too. You're the man, Shawn, you're the man. I went to the bands practice a lot. Been trying to help with getting them better with shows, but I don't know if I actually helped. The show they tried to have yesterday didn't go too well, but I believe they are going for some real shows this time around. They have something this wednesday probably, talk to me or someone in the band for more details. Last night was crazy. I don't feel like going into details on here, but Lou is awesome. Pretty much that's what's been going down over here. I think Pat is coming over today for his BIRTHDAY, that should be pretty cool. Well that's enough out of me.

"You guys aren't making out..." - Lou

"I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to make sure I never become that way again.
Cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been." - "Who I am hates who I've Been" - Relient K

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Back by popular demand!! [17 Jul 2005|04:10pm]
[ mood | dirty ]

Yeah, good times. I'm pretty tired because I was goofing off to the extreme at Jeff's house when the band was playing. I was busting out my amazing/stunning/sexy moves. Everyone who saw them knew they were sexy and quite glorious. And all who didn't see it, you really are going to wish you had. I raved, I moshed, I did the chicken(or my own little version). Who knew I was such an amazing dancer. Either way, besides that, I've been relaxing playing video games and listen to the music. I haven't been talking to many people, but atleast when I have been, it's been good times. Yeah, I use to be on alot more, so I lost touch with alot of people. I really need to get out more. I ditched alot of things I could of gone to, but eh... it cool. We shall see what the future holds. Hopefully some really sweet times. For all you guys who responded to the last one (Meghan, Katie, Kyle, Kara, and Rei), you guys are amazing and you guys kick soo much butt. We all need to hang out and check out my super cool and hip dancing. Scott too for mentioning me in his entry. He just had to be different. You hold a special place in mi heart.

"I'm sick of it, He's been over my house the past week, he slept over the past 4 days. It's getting annoying" - Kyle (Sorry, but that was just waaaaay too freakin' ironic)

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Hey, you remember this guy? (ramble much?) [07 Jul 2005|04:53am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

It's 5 o' clock in the morning, what are you doing? Me, I am on the crazy sleeping schedule EVER!!! Well, so here I am posting for the first time in several months. alot has changed, alot has happened. I've graduated, woot!! I went through great times. Gone through, well, other times. Done things I won't ever forget, and things I really would like to. Well yeah, I think it's enough of the emotional stuff. I noticed I wrote about alot of girls... I AM a man slut. I been stupid,I look back and I didn't like most of them. I will admit there was 2 people I actually really cared alot for in high school. 2 people I really did like alot for and really adored. 2 that a really did feel something the moment I met them. Them being girls I will never forget, even though nothing actually happened. If you're smart you'll figure it out. Puzzles? You love puzzles, don't you? Heh, this is (M)e babbling, this is me babbling. I need to get back to work... how many applications have I filled out and never got anything back, I must be pretty stupid. Shut up afew of you, I have filled in ALOT more then any of you really think. Ehh, what else is there? ahh, video games. Great, great times. Amazing. Glorious some would say. WOOT!!! Oh jeez, Well who ever reads this just comment telling me to (K)eep posting, or just (S)hut up. Any one who pretty much hates me but randomly has me on there friends list, just give me a chance, ehh? ehh!?!?!!? Come on, come on. COME ON!! Come on... COME ON!!!! Come on? come onnnnn.... ALRIGHT!! Come on! OK then.

ps: This is me going crazy, and venting, in a real akward way. Seriously, Just comment and get in touch with me in some way. I'm not stupid, right?

"What does one do at 5am? Ahh, I haven't done a journal in a REALLY long time" - Me five minutes ago

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Two songs that fit the way i feel.... [21 Feb 2005|01:40am]
[ mood | Guess... ]

"Don't Go Away" by Oasis

Cold and frosty morning,
There's not a lot to say,
About the things caught in my mind,
And as the day was dawning,
My plane flew away,
With all the things caught in my mind,

I don't wanna be there when your, coming down,
I don't wanna be there when you hit the ground,
So dont go away,
Say what you say,
Say that you'll stay,
Forever and a day,
In the time of my life,
Cos I need more time,
Yes I need more time just to make things right

Damn my situation and the games I have to play,
With all the things caught in my mind,
Damn my education I can't find the words to say,
With all the things caught in my mind,

I don't wanna be there when your, coming down, I
don't wanna be there when you hit the ground,
So dont go away,
Say what you say,
Say that you'll stay,
Forever and a day,
In the time of my life,
Cos I need more time,
Yes I need more time just to make things right.

Me and you whats going on,
All we seem to know is how to show,
The feelings that I wrote.
So dont go away,
Say what you say,
Say that you'll stay,
Forever and a day,
In the time of my life,
Cos I need more time,
Yes I need more time just to make things right.

And dont go away,
Say what you say,
Say that you'll stay,
Forever and a day,
In the time of my life,
Cos I need more time,
Yes I need more time just to make things right,
Yes I need more time just to make things right,
Yes I need more time just to make things right,
So Don't Go Away.


"Mad Season" Matchbox 20

I feel stupid - but I know it won’t last for long
I’ve been guessing - I coulda been guessin’ wrong
You don’t know me now
I kinda thought that you should somehow
Does that whole mad season got ya down

I feel stupid but it’s something that comes and goes
I’ve been changin’ - think it’s funny how now one knows
We don’t talk about - the little things that we do without
When that whole mad season comes around

So why ya gotta stand there
Looking like the answer now
It seems to me - you’d come around
I need you now
Do you think you can cope
You figured me out - I’m lost and I’m hopeless
Bleeding and broken - though I’ve never spoken
I come undone - in this mad season

I feel stupid - but I think I been catchin’ on
I feel ugly - but I know I still turn you on
You seem colder now, torn apart, angry, turned around
Will that whole mad season knock you down

So are you gonna stand there
Are you gonna help me out
You need to be together now - I need you now
Do you think you can cope
You figured me out - I’m lost and I’m hopeless
Bleeding and broken - though I’ve never spoken
I come undone - in this mad season

Now I’m cryin’ - isn’t that what you want
I’m tryin’ to live my life on my own
But I won’t
At times - I do believe I am strong
So someone tell me why, why, why
Do i, i, I feel stupid
And I came undone
And I came undone

I need you now
Do you think you can cope
You figured me out - I’m lost and I’m hopeless
Bleeding and broken - though I’ve never spoken

I need you now
Do you think you can cope
You figured me out - I’m a child and I’m hopeless
Bleeding and broken - though I’ve never spoken
I come undone - in this mad season

In this mad season
There’s been a mad season
Been a mad season

† H¡rë? †

[14 Feb 2005|06:55pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

Hey hey guys... Happy Valentine's Day to all. Yeah, it's been a basic day, same old same old. Well either way I had my party today, it was fun times. I had an awesome time. I hope all who showed had a good time too. I this weekend was pretty awesome, but then of course there was cleaning up for the party that really sucked, but my house looked nice. Of cousre it was raining in my house too. My neighbors washer broke and started got water all in my ceiling and it was leaking out of the vents... yeah, that really sucked. I was worried it was going to screw up the party... but it didn't. I'm too cool for that. Heh, well I don't know what else to say. I'm outtie

"you guys won't stop cheating your asses off" by Scott playing NFL 2k5

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Opps... I posted [06 Feb 2005|03:12pm]
[ mood | sick ]

Nothing has been going on for the past month... YOU Guys should give me something to write about.

Well, There is the super bowl today, I am pretty happy the eagles are in it. I'm not going to be like some of the other "eagles fans" and throw it in peoples faces. I'm happy they made it, and for me, it was 9 years of watching their games to see them get there, noting the first 5 years were pretty bad. Anyway, I am going to chill out with people at Crea's and watch it. Good times

I am having some kind of hang out next weekend for my birthday, ask me about it on aim or e-mail me at used1hero@cs.com

DO you know you know you have the prettiest eyes?

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[27 Dec 2004|07:44pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

I'd like to say Ashley Rose is a sexy, sexy hippie. Now that I got that out of the way, what's up people? Did you miss me? Enough people told me to update, so it happens. I didn't have much to say. Well christmas was cool, got some nifty stuff. I got a sweet minidisk player with money I got from my mom. I got alot of hoodies, don't know why. didn't ask for them. I got a nice pair of navy blue vans shoes. It's cool. right?! My brother is home. Now that is bad ass. I missed him so. Not much else has happened. Oh, I'm only like 2 pounds over weight right now. That is sweet. I ate so much, but I was only like 6 pounds over before this pratice. Heh well not much else to say. Practice tomorrow and might hang out with some peeps. See what's up. ANYway, I am out. You guys need to give me something to talk about... freaks.

"I know it's hard to make this work when you're all alone" "Blue burns Orange" by Hawthorne Heights

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Forever's gonna start tonight... [20 Dec 2004|11:06pm]
[ mood | dorky ]

Heh, alot has happened lately... Well Matt, my brother, has been in the hospitol since friday, and it has really gotten to me. It definetly affected my performance at the nottingham invitational. well besides that, it just been real hard. My friend Gabe, decided to tell me to try to get things right in my life, and work on what i need to do. Well, maybe i needed that reality check. It's what matt would want. not to sound like he died or something, but you know what i mean. Maybe i should just see what's there for me, what i should work on, do i really want to be alone? do i want to just go no where? Well you have to do something, and i choose to fight. I want to be a better man then i have been, any way i really can. This is motivation, you need it. You need something to fuel you sometimes. Maybe, just maybe this is it. Screw what others think, and time for you to be yourself. What else is there to do? You need to be out there, doing something. There so much more to this life thing... why be afraid... People... tell people what they mean to you... and make sure you mean it... This will be the end of this rambling... no corrections here, this is all from the heart

"what would you think of me now? so lucky, so strong, so proud? I never said thank you for that..." - "Hear you me" by Jimmy Eat World

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That's alright, let's give this another try [12 Dec 2004|10:53pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

**WARNING!! I do not mean to offend anyone... this is for me to vent**


Yeah... why? Why? No really, why? Seriously... FUCK!!! Am I really that stupid? Or are they? Yeah... To believe anyone actually cares? Anyone? Fuck it... Why try? Why not waste life, and just go through the motions? What do I have? Wrestling? Maybe I should forget about everything, forget about the stupid girls with the wish-wash emotions and there false sense of affection. All it really is... is lust. Girls... are stupid. Keep your damn little crushes away from me... I don't need the heartache. On that note... I will try to get over the one girl I am mostly talking about. All in all. Girls are what are pissing me off. It's just they are so... stupid. All of them. They don't know what they want... do they? They are so... fucking... stupid...

My final thought... Girls are stupid!!!

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Can this world really be as sad as it seems? [08 Dec 2004|07:51pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Yeah, Wrestling has been fun. My first practice back we did monkey rolls... I'm not going into what you actually have to do, but they suck. We did five sets... which I threw up twice and started dry heaving after. Today was different, I whooped on everyone and then I didn't puke doing monkey rolls. It's weird to be back to practice... I was super tired today in school. Only fell asleep in phototech because we didn't have anything to do. It was the last day of peerleadership, that was fun. I'm gonna miss the group, good group of kids. Yeah, I don't know what else is up. Way to take one comment way to far and flip out, ending are friendship... how immature can a college girl be? Seriously, I called you shallow... hoping you might notice you really were, but no, you say I was being a pig headed asshole... and decide to call it quits on our friendship. Can't take someone telling you bad things about yourself? Ever hear of constructive criticism? People aren't perfect, and you and everyone else I know, including myself, are far from it. Seriously... everyone has things they can work on... just get over yourself. I was just trying to help you out. Enough about that and once again... Rach... what's up? Some one tell me. There must be something going on... If you didn't like it, then why did you do it? There's nothing I can do now, so whatever. If you want to talk, you come to me a talk, I through with trying. I just have one more thing to ask... did you like it?

"But as love, It's really love. It never fails, But fail it does" - "Inflatable" by Bush

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Roller Coaster, Favorite Ride. Let me kiss you one last time.... [06 Dec 2004|09:07pm]
[ mood | confused ]

Today, was in fact... a roller coaster. Today started off bad. I didn't want to get up and some how I cut myself shaving... but I guess it happens. Then I got to school... saw Rach talked to her and yeah... good stuff. Then class were fine until I found out Marisa was kinda pissed about someone's stupid actions. Anyway I worked that one out. Then 5th, Klek's a jerk and decides to mark T or F wrong on a quiz, so I failed it, getting all the answers right. What an ass clown... Well then lunch I got a salad ate some, talked to Marisa then Julie and Ashley Rose, too pretty cool kids. Then then I got an A on my photo tech project, go me. Then I found out I could wrestle again... but I still have to lose 10 pounds. I can do it... right? Well then Kara is still ticked off, but I'm not saying sorry for something I full heartedly meant. She's been real shallow lately and she has to get over herself. I have nothing to apoligize for. Well then back to Rach problems... I was suppose to call her at 8... so I did, no answer, so I try again, nothing. I did it like 4-5 more times for a hour... then gave up. SO yeah... ANYway... still oh so confused. Now I found out some one else likes me... and bah, what to do, this whole day is really really crazy. I like Rach, but really, some one tell me what's going on? Well enough from me...

"It was easy when you're younger. You could put it back together" - "EZ" by Pete Yorn

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Blocked.... Wait... Wait For it... (Total Blurt) [05 Dec 2004|11:34pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Things have been crrrazy during this crrrazy weekend. Well yeah, the show kicked ass. Unlike all the others, I will say the whole thing was bad ass. All the bands were good from what I heard. I saw Megan there. Haven't seen her in like a year. One thing that pissed me off is how someone is stuck to my ass every single second I hang out with them. Other then that, the show was cool. Then today hell broke loose, well let's not get into detail, it was just ugly. The best thing was talking to Rach, but who knows what's up there. I am still on my way to get over her, but yeah, I still like her. I have to say wrestling is going slow... maybe because I busted my back... wait... wait... yeah, has to be it that. Another good thing is that the Eagles killed the Packers, woot. So maybe it wasn't such a bad day. All I have to say is, people need to get over me... and themselves. First off, I'm not that cool of a person: no car, no job, well for that matter... no life. I know people can do better then that. And Second, some people need to get the point, the world isn't revolving around you, not everyone wants to kiss your feet, and finally, I bet you some one has to hate you... One thing in live that sucks, but it is true, is that you can't make everyone happy. People are bound to hate you. You can't let that get you all moody or down about it. Well yeah, that's all I can say about that. Lou, you are the man... go Racist Mobile.

"One shall stand, one shall fall" - Optimus Prime in Transformers The Movie

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I let myself in though I know I'm not suppose to... [29 Nov 2004|09:12pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

Hey Guys, things have changed abit. I've given up... on, yeah. ANYway. Wrestling is super bad ass. I don't think I am doing too bad. My brothers a beast this year. Practice hasn't been that hard yet, my body is just taking damage all over the place. My neck is pretty sore right about now. Well on to the fun events of today...

I thought that today was gonna definetly suck, but it turned out bad ass. Well AP Euro and Comp Sci was the same, but yeah, After that, the magic happened. Weight lifting was super fun I like pull up, sooo easy. Then Marisa told me that it was Margaret's Birthday. Heh! YES!! That was cool. So when I went to art, finished the one part of my project, me and Jodie... Well mostly Jodie, worked on a card, I gave her help when she needed it, which was when she couldn't think how some one looked. Well that killed that period, then we heard Macbeth... heh lame!! Yeah 6th me, Alexa, and Abbie hung out and talked about stuff, and the kept calling wrestling lame.. and gay. That pissed me off, but eh, people have there thoughts. 7th lunch was awesome!! I saw Margaret and asked her what's up... and slyly handed her the coolest card ever... All the girls thought it was sweet... I thought it was bad ass. But it was all good. Because, well... MARGARET GAVE ME A HUG!!!!! Heh, yeah, that was cool. Then I found out, to my dismay, that Ashley... a freshman girl... is as tall or taller then me, which really, really sucks. Yeah.. well then 8th, I should of had photo tech, but yeah, I had peer leadership. I should of paid more attention, but me and Carolyn were talking. Oh yeah... Carolyn's Party kicked ass. I was the king of Karaoke, but yeah.. Cara killed it, and Katie did awesome on one song. AFter most people left me and Carolyn tried are luck on Expert mode. I almost got a gold, off by like 200. She wasn't too far off either. It was crazy. We, Carolyn, my dear friend, are pros. Yeah Back to school. 9th was cool. The song we are STILL playing, Christmas Spectacular isn't that bad. Well wrestling was fun, we'll see how fast that ends. Only 3 more pounds baby!! Well I'm Out.

"From the way that you acted to the way that I felt it. It wasn't worth my time" - "Goodbye to You" The Used

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Yeah, this kind of sucks, Kind of. [27 Nov 2004|01:00am]
[ mood | disappointed ]

Yeah, all the time I thought she just like Jacob, and it all just came out today. Not even from her, I had to hear from friend. Well, You know what, I want her to be happy, so whatever, if she wants to be with that guy, so be it. Doesn't really make me happy, but whatever. Kind of ticks me off she couldn't tell me herself. I'm not gonna lie and say I am a happy man, I'm kind really upset and really pissed off, butwhat do you really expect. I leave you with this awesome song that I feel talks about what I can't really say right now.


"My Heart is the worst kind of Weapon" by Fall Out Boy

I spent most of last night dragging this lake
for the corpses of all my past mistakes
sell me out- the jokes on you
we are salt- you are the wound
empty another bottle
and let me tear you to pieces
this is me wishing you
into the worst situations
i'm the kind of kid
that can't let anything go
but you wouldn't know a good thing
if it came up and slit your throat

your remorse hasn't fallen on deaf ears
rather ones that just don't care
because i know
that you're in between arms somewhere
next to heartbeats
where you shouldn't dare sleep
I'll teach you a lesson
for keeping secrets from me

take your taste back
peel back your skin
and try to forget how it feels inside
you should try saying no once in a while
oh once in a while
take your taste back
peel back your skin
and try to forget how it feels inside
you should try saying no once in a while
oh once in a while

and did you hear the news?
i could dissect you
and gut you on this stage
not as elequent as i may have imagined
but it will get the job done (you're done)
every line is plotted and designed
to leave you standing
on your bedroom window's ledge
and everyone else that it hits
that it gets to
is nothing more than collateral damage

take your taste back
peel back your skin
and try to forget how it feels inside
you should try saying no once in a while
oh once in a while
take your taste back
peel back your skin
and try to forget how it feels inside
you should try saying no once in a while
oh once in a while

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Tribute... [25 Nov 2004|06:06pm]
[ mood | amused ]

"Anna Begins" by Counting Crows

My friend assures me "it's all or nothing"
I am not worried- I am not overly concerned
My friend implores me " for one time only,
make an exception." I am not worried
Wrap her up in a package of lies
Send her off to a coconut island
I am not worried - I am not overly concerned
with the status of my emotions
"oh", She says, "were changing."
But were always changing
It does not bother me to say this isn't love
Because if you don't want to talk about it then it isn't love
and I guess I'm going to have to live that
but, I'm sure there's something in a shade of gray
or something in between
and I can always change my name if that's what you mean
My friend assures me "it's all or nothing`
But I am not really worried
I am not overly concerned
You try to tell your self the things you try tell your self to make
yourself forget
to make your self forget
I am not worried
"If it's love" she said, "then were gonna have to think about the
consequences"
She can't stop shaking and I can t stop touching her and.....
This time when kindness falls like rain
It washes her away and Anna begins to change her mind
"these seconds when I'm shaking leave me shuddering
for days" she says.
And I'm not ready for this sort of thing
But I'm not gonna break
And I'm not going to worry about it anymore
I'm not gonna bend. And I'm not gonna break and
I'm not gonna worry about it anymore. no no no no, no
It seems like I should say "as long as this is love..."
But it's not all that easy so maybe I should just
snap her up in a butterfly net-
Pin her down on a photograph album
I am not worried
I've done this sort of thing before
But then I start to think about the consequences
Because I don't get no sleep in a quiet room and...
The time when kindness falls like rain
It washes me away and Anna begins change my mind
And every time she sneezes I believe it's love
and oh lord.... I'm not ready for this sort of thing
She s talking in her sleep-it s keeping me awake
And Anna begins to toss and turn
And every word is nonsense but I understand and
oh lord. I'm not ready for this sort of thing
Her kindness bangs a gong
It's moving me along and Anna begins to fade away
It s chasing me away.
She dissappears, and oh lord I'm not ready for this sort of thing


God, who puts a Counting Crows at the beginning of there post. Woot, Alright, Awesome. Well, I will recap on the days off so far. The turkey break has been a fun and furious past 2 days, only to get crazier the next 2 days with wrestling.

Well, Yesterday at school I was completely awful. It was the first day I didn't even try to talk to Rach today before school. Doesn't mean I wasn't thinking about her. She told me that she wasn't going to talk wednesday because she didn't want get anyone in trouble or start more drama. That really set the tone for the whole day at school. I told Annie about the AP Euro homework the night before , so I knew I knew about it about it, but somewhere from then and when I first walked into school, I had comepletely forget all about it. Yeah, The nigth before sucked. Anyway, well I didn't have that, but that class was ok... I wore my tiara. Look, it was manly, I swear. I found it on around a desk near me. That mad the class for me, maybe also the 20 points I got for helping annie with like 4 crosswords answers... it was so cool, and cheap, but really cool. The we went to 6th, but yeah, that was completely boring. I just sat there and watched Alexa cut out random tennis sayings and pictures. Thaat was about it. Then lunch came. Lunch was an emotional rollercoster that sucked nuts. I was just gonna sit at my usual table, but no one showed up, so I went to the other one, with Rach. Instead of being right next to her, I was on the opposite side of the table looking on at her. Me and Ashley talked. We talked about alot of stuff, mostly what's going on with me and Rach. Ashley was getting mad because I'd look over at Rach and then get really down on myself. It happens. I really felt like for some reason, some how, I lost her, which really got me. My other friend named Ashley came over and talked to me for afew minutes. That was pretty cool. I just started talking to her but we have the same taste in music, and similar points of veiws on different things. The only thing is she likes Gwen more then Gavin. Gavin is the man, so much better then Gwen. Well there I was then, just thinking, looking at Rach sometimes, thinking how beautiful she is, thinking how she probably just didn't want to talk to me. I thought she didn't want to talk, so I didn't try to talk to her. Then near the end she sat down next to Ashley (The first one) and talked to me abit. I felt alittle better, but confused. The Bell rang, so I went to give her a big hug and went on to 8th. There I sat around working on some work for the project. Then I went off and just started thinking about everything. Yeah, The time went by fast, and the bell rang. Band was stupid. Most the time the percussionist were just getting yelled at by Reeve. It wasn't very cool. Me and Crea talked alot, because we weren't playing. We played some song Christmas Spectactular... It was cool. That was the end of school, and the beginning of the cool stuff.

I got home and went only. I get an im from annie's screen name saying it's Rach. We talked about stuff. It was nice to talk to her about everything. We only talked for awhile but it's ok. I got another im from my friend of mine, Mario. He hasn't talked to me lately, but he immed me, which was weird, but whatever. Next thing he asks about me and Rach. I was like, "Huh? how do you know about that?". He tells me how they were talking today, and they started talking about who the like, and out of no where she mentions how she really likes me.It made me just feel stupid and made me realize how self centered I have been about this whole Rach thing. Well, now things should be better. I know she different, but that's what cool about her. Time will only tell. Well why this was happening, Scott, MK, and Lou had come over. We were trying to figure out what to do, Kyle had a date, so yeah, we wanted to go out somewhere. We ended up going to the mall. YES!! The mall. Well It wasn't like most days. We started off by going to Old Navy and trying on the preppiest stuff EVER!! Lou put on a long sleeve button up and a sweater over with zebra striped pants.. duh!! Matt wore stylish small turtle neck with flashy tan prep coat with cordaroys. ME, I looked the best. I put on a long sleeve button up, super tight shirt and my own pair of cordaroy pants. We all were so sexy. We tried to get pictures for all the girls, but the lady was freaking out. She even said I DIDN'T look good. I can't beleive her. We were all SO going to buy that stuff too. She had to be mean, so we didn't. Riight. Yeah, after that little trip, we went to Borders Express, where I ask the lady if they had any books to help me pick up chicks. Actually, they did, and she took me to the area. I pick up a book, opened a page, and BAM!! Full out porn.. out in the open. Yeah, that's ok, right? We went to this furniture store to just lay around and sit. The guy came over and asked us what we were looking for, so I made up this total bullshit story. He showed us some stuff and let us hang around. We took some pictures laying on this really comfy bed. Well Anyway, after that. We headed out of there, and went and walked around. We went to FYE, and I saw my dear friend Margaret Kelley, I tried to talk to her, but she completely ignored me. That really upset me. Really killed the rest of the time. We just walked around after that... we were about to leave, then the big man himself, Tristan, showed up. So we walked around some more, got some pretzel and then Headed out. Tristan and Lou Raced. It was Epic, but Lou came out victorious. We then played some Mortal Kombat Deceptions. That was bad ass. Puzzle Kombat is the shit. Then peeps left and I slept.

I woke up bright and early to play football. Not just football, but 11 on 11 football with big guys in there late 20s. It was pretty fun, the guys were cool. The only thing was they had me play d-line and o-line. Yeah, that really sucked. But I got a td when they never even threw to me. That was super bad ass. The one guy dropped and I was there to scoop it all up, right in the endzone. Other then that, I did prretty bad on the line, but it's all good. It was awesome. We got home just enough time to take a shower and eat turkey dinner... at 1:00. Then after eatting sooo much turkey and other good stuff (like stuffing) I took a nap. I woke up. Watched the Cowboys game and now I am here. Wow, Kyle how the hell do you always type the much ALL the time? Anyway. I hope you all figured out where you were. WHEEE!!! Fuck you!!

"What does it take to be a super hero in my world, make no mistake these villians always get the girl" - "Straw Dog" by Something Corporate.

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Here's the post you've all been wanting [21 Nov 2004|09:36pm]
[ mood | sick ]

Yeah, haven't made an actual post in awhile. The last one was a joke. So... here I am.

Friday Night's Party, was, my dear friends, was infact a great failure. We went to gamer's realm, got some packs of Unhinged, a new joke pack of magic. It's great. Funny cards. Lou's favorite is the card "Duh". Yeah, It's official. I just don't like first person shooters. It's everyone's favorite, but it's just not fun to me. Most of the night consisted of Halo 2 and Metriod Prime 2: Echoes. Yeah, I will say it again, I really don't like first person shooters. So me, I did what I always do. My fault? Yes, but it happens.

This week end was fun right? I didn't feel good what so ever, but it happens, I endured it all. I had my last football game that I ever have to go to. I'll miss hanging out with my friends in band at the game, but I sure am glad that they won't make me play music all the time when I want to watch my brother kick some ass. After the game, me and Marisa hung out, then Scott came over, and then came Lou. After Marisa left and everyone was doing stuff, I slept, yeah, loser like that. I really don't think much happens saturday. I can't recall anything after waking up for awhile. I think Lou, Matt, and Scott went out and took crazy pictures. That's all I recall for saturday.

Today, I hung out. Me, Crea, Tristan, Matt, Lou, and Scott all went to the mall. We all went to Borders and Gamestop, then me and Crea went off, and they went somewhere else, we just looked at stuff. Why are headphones so expensive? It sucks. My old ones blew out, so I need new ones, but they are so expensive. Well then half way through being there, I got a mean headache. I thought I was hungry, but yeah, when I ate, and I felt like throwing it all up. That really sucked too. Well, then we went home, and I slept. I woke up afew times to Lou, Scott, and Matt's Loud singing. Way to be conciderate, ass clowns. Naw, it was cool. I was able to get back to sleep. I woke up in time to see every one leave. So here I am.

What's on my mind? Yeah.. 3 attempts, 3 failures. Yeah, I'm talking about Rach. I don't know I think we have something. I thought she liked me, but everytime I try to talk to her or hang out it gets weird. Yeah we talk, but it's ussually small talk. I heard she could be loud, but I have yet to actually hear her get loud. I want to talk about meaningful things. I want to find out more about her. What I know of, she is a really great and beautiful person, of course I want to know more about her. It just seems like she isn't that interested, even though everyone keeps telling me she is. I don't know, I'm super discouarged and confused right about now. The last few weeks have been so complicated. That's why I haven't been posting. It's been so hard to get my self thinking on just one thing. Hopefully I'll post now that I think I have things under control. I'm off.

Ciao

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On a Serious Note... [16 Nov 2004|07:52pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

If you guys love me.... Honestly love me, bake me a cake. YES, a cake. I have a special request. If you bake me a cake, I want a yellow cake with vanilla frosting with a chocolate bunny on the top. MMMMMM, some one rrrreally needs to bake me this cake. Anytime you want to, but seriously, some one just bake me this gosh darn cake! Or... or... or well, I'll cry!!!

Yeah, and again, I am not a slut. I don't see what's wrong with playing one on one soccer with people. It's a cute game, I play it all the time. It's fun for the whole family or a group a friends, of course, you have to split up in pairs. Get the family dog in to it too. It's a fun game... yeah, I said that already. Yeeeeah, I'll stop right there.

Anyway, things are fun. Party at my house friday, for all the cool people not going to the social... yeah.. you know who you are. Talk to me about it or comment. We won't be playing any one on one soccer, but it will be cool. Just bring my cakes...

Yeeeeah, that's it.

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